Month: February 2024

I know it’s been awhile. I haven’t been in the mindset to write for a long time… but tonight…. I’m writing to empty my mind.

You see my fur nephew is scheduled to cross the rainbow bridge tomorrow. It was supposed to be later on this week but he is rapidly deteriorating. So this is my last night going to bed as a fur uncle to two nephews… tomorrow that changes.

There is beauty in the scheduled aspect. He’s been getting a lot of lasts that he is living one more time… last trip to the beach, last family walk, last slice of pizza, last pup cup. But with this beauty comes the heavy sadness of what every last means… a step closer to his crossing… a step closer to him not being here. I know many will say he’s just a dog. But in my family we love our pets like children.

My grieving started two weeks ago when his rapid deterioration started and every time I got a cuddle it broke my heart a bit more but tonight I am sitting here with tears in my eyes knowing that this will be his last night of sleep with his brother and the hurt that will come for his little brother who has only ever known life with him in it… after tomorrow he steps forward alone and he won’t understand why. All I hope is that he has seen the quality of life falling and that in his little heart he can piece the two parts together and as we work through this as a family he is still so loved.

Good night baby Bax. You are loved beyond what you know.